Monday, November 10, 2008

Time for Pondering....

These last couple of months have been crazy at the homestead.... I work full time outside the home. (6-7 days a week). Blogging is my relaxation. (Thanks to my friend, John at Potpolitics~he started this pondering today!) Some times there are just not enough hours in the day.

This summer several things happened.
  1. Changed jobs.
  2. My mother was diagnosed with breast cancer.
  3. Holding my mom's hand through chemo 800 miles away.
  4. My 20 yo son moved back home.
  5. My best friend has been in total upheaval for about 6 months.
  6. My son's girl friend came to visit for a little over a week.

The job change is great. With the economy the way it is, I feel blessed to have a job I enjoy and pays the bills.

I was able to go home for mom's surgery, but have had to endure her trials via daily phone calls during her chemo. As the oldest, that is hard on me. I feel like I should be there to hold her hand, wipe her brow, dry her tears.... but that just isn't to be. (She lives with my younger sister~ but it should be me taking care of her!)

My son's father died one year ago. My son went to basic, then really had no where else to go. I welcome him with open arms. It is a great big adjustment to have another person added to the household in the small environment of our little house. (one bathroom)

Then to try to be a good friend.... can't even go there!

Then my son's girlfriend came for a visit. She is sweet and totally adorable! But again, entertaining a guest wears and remember... only one bathroom.

Well, last evening, best friend and I loaded up the car with army stuff and the kids.... Son had to report for training and Son's girlfriend had to report at her new duty station.... and off we went to Fort Bragg. We got them situated and took them to dinner. By the time I got home, I was exhausted. I had an early meeting this am. And now, I am home. In a quiet place. No lines for the lone bathroom. And kind of at odds... You mean I really have time to sit and do a real blog post! I feel kind of lost. So bear with me my dear dear dear blogging friends. I hope to have some new and fun stuff to write about soon! Now it is time to put this post to bed and curl up with the sweetie for a quiet evening!


  1. Sorry about your Mom,she is imy prayers.

  2. It sounds like you have been going through a lot. I'm adding your mom to my prayer list. Enjoy your quiet time. I hope your son settles in at his new place and you can feel calm again. Deep breaths.

  3. Lots going on for you- sounds like you have ways to cope and get through things. Looks like your cute little dog can help by being a warm little cuddler to help you get some sleep:)

  4. Hi thanks for mentioning me
    You know whats weird is last night I accidentally turned off the TV and was met with silence and darkness and instead of splitting on it real quick I breathe in deeply and decided to take a minute to just lay there in the dark and feel a moment of peace.Then I started to think about the direction I wanted to head the goals I had put on myself and the.....but it was sweet while it lasted all 3 minutes of it ;)
    My Mom died last year and I often think there's no one at that number anymore.
    Sometimes when I'm thinking how hard and bad my life is I just think of all the people that are gone and the people in prison and look at my son and my freedom and realize I have it like a KING :)
    Have a peaceful evening :)

  5. We all need sometime in our lives to take a break and just spend a quite time and think of the things that happened.. When i am in a bad and stressful day, i just pause for a while and think that everything happens for a reason..

  6. It's good to read that even though you have a lot going on, you're still thankful for certain things. I tend to forget to be thankful and focus too much on the negative. Have to work on that.

  7. i enjoy just sitting and thinking about things sometimes. it helps me put everything back in perspective.

  8. Sometimes it is good to just sit and ponder for a while. You have certainly had a lot going on in your life lately. As someone who has been through the trauma of cancer himself, I do hope your dear Mum gets through her ordeal Okay and hopefully makes a full recovery. You are bound to feel guilt at not being able to hold her hand, but as long as you are able to support her when you can then you should have a clear conscience.

  9. It's nice to get some time to think sometimes isn't it. I find that walking to work really helps me thing and I usually come up with my best blog posts then ..

    Problem is .. by the time I get to my destination I'm thinking of something else!

  10. wow - you have a lot going on! I'm glad you're able to find a form of relaxation somewhere. Things will work out - they always do.

  11. There is a lot going on with you and your family. I will keep you all in my prayers. Enjoy your peaceful house.

  12. I'm sorry to hear about your mother. It seems as though you are handling all of the changes in your household quite well. My family is going through a lot of changes as well right now. I just started a new job yesterday after 9 months of being off and it will take my family a while to adjust.

  13. I find the only way to get through times like that to just feel grateful for all the good things in your life (instead of pondering on shoulds) - and at least three things you can be thankful for you already mentioned yourself: the job you love, peaceful house and a private bathroom... You are one brave lady and you're doing great - just look at all of your friends that are with you in their thoughts and prayers...

  14. That's a lot to go through in a short time. And you're actually still going through a lot still. Please take care of you. You're a caring person and it shows through your actions. Praying for your dear Mom.

  15. Life sure doesn't stand still that's a given. Your plate is full, but also seems packed with all the right people and animals :) All the best to all of them, and enjoy your quiet moments! They can be few and far apart!

  16. There's an old saying, fish and family go bad after 3 days. It was definitely true when my brother in law came to visit.
    Sorry to hear about your Mom. I'm sure that's it hard enough without considering the distance. I'll bet it felt good to reclaim the house and have some quiet when you got home. And not wait for the bathroom.

  17. You need to schedule yourself a nervous breakdown. They are actuality quite good for Praying for you, my dear.


  18. Oh my goodness!!! ((((((((BIG WARM KITTY HUGS)))))) to you!! We will be purrring and purraing for you, your Mom, your son and his girlfriend and your furiend!! So glad you are enjoying your job!! :::waving paws::: Hi Sugar!!
    Your FL furiends,

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  20. We all r praying for u dear...dont worry if its down rt now then there is up ahead...

  21. Whew, Christina, what a rollercoaster ride! We grab the good times as we can, one bathroom notwithstanding, and sigh with bittersweetness and even a tad of relief as our kids make their way into the world and back home again, and then back again. I'm really sorry to hear about your mom...I can relate at least a bit since we had quite a summer with Jack's mom and her cancer. Being there for your mom by phone is a tremendous support for her, even if you can't be there in person all the time. I'm so glad you're liking your new job! Your post made me shed a few's so worth the ups and downs, isn't it? Love you, my friend :)

  22. Hi there Christina.....
    Oh how I understand, and I'm so sorry that life sometimes just seems to grab us by the scruff of our necks and yank us backwards. Sometimes tho, it can be a good thing. Makes us reflect, find thankfulness for things forgotten or overlooked within ourselves and our surroundings.
    My thoughts and prayers are with you, only wished I were closer so we could down several gallons of coffee together~and throw in a few giggles too!
    ~Hugs for you, my Sweet Friend~

  23. How are things going? Have you heard from your son?


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